Everyday it improves, but I am still crossing my fingers that it'll just flat out disappear so we all can move past this terribly painful situation.

The knot in my stomach would vanish if I could just stand up and stop sugarcoating everything. I have so much to tell you. For one thing, you could have changed a part of me forever, but how am I to get through to you?

I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything

yes yes, I like the way things are going.

I'm ultra-excited for the summer. I love family. I love friends. I love being able to breaaathe.

I've felt awfully ornery lately.

Approach with caution. Heart could open at any moment.

In other news: badass! I like me.

yippity-do

Mmm! Life is so refreshing!

I slept in my room in my bed for the first time since probably before thanksgiving last night. Wow. I woke up with a whole new perspective on a lot of things. Today has been a good day. Tomorrow will be a good day and so will the day after that. Why? Because I said so. No one is going to make me into something I'm not and no one will make me go against my own feelings. Agreed.

I love you all. The end.

I slept for zero hours last night and had more energy than I've had in months. My dad came home with a gaping head wound today. I made dark chocolate peanut butter cookies. Saffron has been trying to reproduce with Preston. (they're both of the male gender) There are a lot of other things that are going on that I'm not going to use my blog for. But, I am still a definite pedophile.

...and proud!

best email I've ever received

dear brave, talented, gifted, adventurous, beautiful cook Ana,

o my gosh!!! these pictures look sooooo authentic!!! like the ones that
would be on a cook-book or something...so neat and clean...it just looks
perfect!!!

wow!!! you are so brave to try to cook all the food that you mentioned. i
have never been brave enough to make chicken tikka masala coz i am
scared i will mess it up. but man, you are so brave! i have never made
palak paneer either. i had tried to make gajar ka halwa once when i was
in nepal and it turned out to be a disaster and nobody ate it :(

i am so proud of you. you must be an amazingly brave and most wonderfully
gifted cook. i personally believe that if you can make chicken tikka
masala, there's nothing else in the world you can't do!!! Go, conquer
the world!!! BRAVO!!!

Subu

I don't want to preach or anything, but seriously, food is the best medicine for anything be it physical and especially mental.

Oh yeah, and friends. :-)

...Sigh. I can't wait for '08. Stay strong.

"Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody." -Holden Caulfield

Why, hello winter! How nice of you to finally drop in.

I finally decided what I want to major in.....
I want to be a meteorologist! I have loved weather my whole life and I just now realized this? Wow. I realized how much Social Work would tear me apart and now my eyes are wide open to this idea. I couldn't be more excited.


...but no schools offer it aside from big schools such as The Ohio State University. Yuck. We'll see.

"Eleven o'clock had come and gone. I had to find a way to bring this conversation to a successful conclusion and get out of there. But before I could say anything, she suddenly asked me to hold her.
'Why?' I asked, caught off guard.
'To charge my batteries,' she said.
'Charge your batteries?'
'My body has run out of electricity. I haven't been able to sleep for days now. The minute I get to sleep I wake up, and then I can't get back to sleep. I can't think. When I get like that, somebody has to charge my batteries. Otherwise, I can't go on living. It's true."
-The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle by: Haruki Murakami