I'm not a bad person.. at least I like to think I'm not. I try to be a good friend, daughter, sister, etc.. though I fail miserably at time. But, it's the thought that counts.

Regardless, I don't think I deserve to be repeatedly screwed over. I have never had anything physical with someone who cares about me and it hasn't really bothered me much up until now. I am filled with a feeling of disgust and I want to clean it all out.