"I'm far away and I'm feeling alone
I've got one week behind me, just six more to go
If i could see you I'd take off your clothes
And we'd lie in the garden and watch the weeds grow

The grass is so high
I can't see over
And the moon is so full
It's setting the stars all on fire
If they build the dam
Any higher
Their gonna back up the crick and
Set this whole place under water
The city is a million miles away
The city is a million miles away

I lie Awake and think of you
The floods and fires might be coming through
But you would know just what to do
Yeah, you would know just what to do"

YES

I need support. I'm pushing as hard as I can to go places and be something but I need a different sort of help now. I think you can help me. I'm afraid to ask you and should probably just leave you alone.

My toes are tingling. I think this part of my body feels it the strongest. I'm not sure why. I like the feeling. My curiosity is running out of control and I'm not going to try to stop it.

....

Once again.. here I am. I hope I don't set it all up real nice just so it can gradually increase its wobbly-ness and then eventually(or maybe inevitably?) tip over, scattering itself on the table, the chairs and to the ground, maybe even ending up in a pair of my shoes. I'm not in the mood for that anymore.

I am a newly found believer that the earth and its creatures are fully aware of who loves them. They will repay you. They will return the love and bring you beautiful days and protect you when necessary. The bees will not sting you, simply admire you in the same way you do, them. The sunflowers will stare at you for the same amount of time you sat waiting patiently(maybe) for their arrival. They will watch you, even through the kitchen window, as you go about your day. The grass will become more pillow-like in order to give you the comfort necessary for that afternoon nap, or evening lounge. The clouds, although seemingly disconnected, will show you the storms when you need/want them and they will clear when your senses are ready. The pollen count, however, may be the least friendly, but I just consider it the pesky little brother-annoying, but necessary. When the birds wake up, they are instantly ready to put on a show until sunset. Domesticated dogs, though, well, they are an interesting case in this world. They were not naturally selected, but they will play nurse when the time is right. They will try to cuddle your sniffles away, even if their hair makes you sneeze a little. I do wish they could laugh, however. For all the moments of embarrassment when I am home alone, it is important to have someone there to laugh during these times. Instead, they stare, concerned, through the bumping into tables and slipping on melted ice. They're alright, really.

Shake my senses, they're going numb.

For the past 7 or 8 months I have been telling myself to get rid of you. I'm bored right now, that could be why I let you back in. You're not a very kind person. I think it sucks that there are people taking care of you and you express zero gratitude. I don't get it. One minute, you call me, and you want to be with me.. the next, you want me to leave. Well, this is it. I really need to stick to this and never look back. You do nothing but create problems in my life. You have affected my mental, emotional AND physical health. Go ahead, ruin your life. I will NOT help you.

I need to live my life more simply. The only boy who proves to show unconditional love & support is an almost 5 year old living in Conway, New Hampshire. Life should present us with easier ways to form friendships with both genders, but, at this point, I'm becoming convinced that it's not possible.