With almost 20 years on my belt of knowing ME and not knowing me + _____, I hope you find time to get to know yourself now. It's OK to not be an addition problem all the time.

Scheduling classes gives me indigestion.

Last week life kept setting me on the ground only to roll me around & bat me back & forth until I was nauseous, frustrated, delirious, & mostly sad.

I'm tired. I'm definitely still tired.

But, oy, watching my parent's sudden rejuvenation this week over their two new bicycles astounds me. They have been taken back to a place which hasn't been visited for years & their eyes are wide... They are incredibly giggly & can't find anything even remotely more important to talk about with anyone. It's incredible to see how life tends to bring a lot of people to a point where everything's just flat out LAME(for lack of a better description) in order for one to rediscover their original loves.

As I walked into the garage today and glanced back & forth between my parent's old Peugeots & their new super slick Raleighs..I felt like they had stepped into an entirely new world. My mother's Peugeot is now with me & living a new & (hopefully) exciting life while my father's is acting as an organ donor to save the female. He hangs proudly on the wall with missing pieces but elated to have aided in her reincarnation. Meanwhile, the new Raleighs stand happily to the side awaiting an extreme amount of adventure. Simultaneously, our three cars sit outside the garage in the rain, practically being ridiculed by the 'cycles. :-)

I believe what hurt me most last week was probably the fact the sun was blaring down on my life & I couldn't stop to appreciate it even for a moment. I could feel it & soak it, but it wouldn't get to my core. Instead, I was thoroughly grumbly & constantly waiting for some sign that things would improve..I spent more time keeping my eyes peeled than noticing the little exciting & rather intricate details springing up.

I am trying to make the next few years feel feasible & comfortable to the best of my ability. I hate to say it, but I truly am excited to receive my Macbook this week after the frustrations I've endured all year with this PC.

I thought another sector of my life was ready to be tested, but it seems to be falling through. I suppose I should accept this & simply appreciate the incredible relationships that already surround me.

People are a lot more wonderful & astoundingly beautiful than I had expected.

blech.

This may take more patience than I have in me.