It was nearing a year ago that you told me we wouldn't work because you weren't even feeling real attraction towards any girl lately due to an imbalance in your brain. I didn't understand you. You were probably lying to me, now that I think about it. Anyway, none of that matters now.

But, even if you were lying...I know that feeling is possible. I cannot find it in me as of late to feel anything towards anyone.

I was sure life would change a great deal with college starting..and for the most part, it did. However, I'm nearing 19 and I still cannot find the part of me which could feel love. My standards have gotten more strict and I'm let down more rapidly than before. I see plenty of interesting menfolk all over the place, but they don't have that spark I'm looking for.

I want him to approach me, sweep me off my feet, dance 'til our toes fall off..then we can go home, grab a cup of tea and we'll take turns making our favorite foods for each other. After this, he'll surprise me with a picnic, because he'll just know all I think about is food...so we'll ride our bicycles to the destination with the picnic basket strapped on the back of peugeot gris with her beautiful vine of flowers blowing in the wind. After picnicking, we'll go steal sunflowers from the garden next to Angel Falls Coffee. Then we'll meander over to his front porch where he'll play banjo for me until my ears melt into nothing. The extravaganza will finish with a late night hike (which I plan on getting good at)...'til the wee hours of the morn.
the end.
PS there will be dancing in between all activities, also.

What I'm trying to get at is...I'm bored.

I think that if someone forced me to pick one genre I had to listen to for the rest of my life, it would ultimately be folk.

I would lose my ability to function without folk music.

Thanks.

:-(

I think I have officially hit the biggest writer's block.

The thoughts are brewing, I can feel them, but nothing is spilling onto the paper as I would like it to.

But, just so everyone knows, if you hear I am telling people that there is someone in my life, it is only to get the constant creeps off my back as of late. I decided to even begin wearing a "promise" ring.

What could it hurt?