16.6.10
29.5.10
This week I was lectured at least 3 times on the matter of remaining "single" (by legal definition). These lectures were all given to me by the men of VK Maintenance.
I need that reminder sometimes that it's necessary to take time out for ME... maybe I need to take a month or 2 off after graduating and travel. I want to become so comfortable with the idea of traveling alone/living alone to the point of not wanting a "group" trip anymore. It sounds harsh but it's true. I'm already on the way. I know what I like and regardless of how much I have in common with a person, disagreements will arise.
From time to time I realize I did take a trip for 11 days alone and survived.. though I hit some scrapes and bruises, I made it. Ana, that was only your first time traveling alone, by the way.
I feel like it's too common of an argument with myself no matter how much I think I've gotten better at living for me. I'm human, though. Humans want things they don't necessarily need all the time. I wake up some days and I'm content.. and some nights I lie awake in embarrassment of my inability to commit for fear of disappointment. If I didn't have anyone to compare myself to on this matter I wouldn't feel so lame. That's all.
All I hear is; "You're going to be 22 this year and you haven't committed to anything AT ALL yet?"
"Yeah, I mean, I guess the right one hasn't come along, yet." <--- lame-o.
I need that reminder sometimes that it's necessary to take time out for ME... maybe I need to take a month or 2 off after graduating and travel. I want to become so comfortable with the idea of traveling alone/living alone to the point of not wanting a "group" trip anymore. It sounds harsh but it's true. I'm already on the way. I know what I like and regardless of how much I have in common with a person, disagreements will arise.
From time to time I realize I did take a trip for 11 days alone and survived.. though I hit some scrapes and bruises, I made it. Ana, that was only your first time traveling alone, by the way.
I feel like it's too common of an argument with myself no matter how much I think I've gotten better at living for me. I'm human, though. Humans want things they don't necessarily need all the time. I wake up some days and I'm content.. and some nights I lie awake in embarrassment of my inability to commit for fear of disappointment. If I didn't have anyone to compare myself to on this matter I wouldn't feel so lame. That's all.
All I hear is; "You're going to be 22 this year and you haven't committed to anything AT ALL yet?"
"Yeah, I mean, I guess the right one hasn't come along, yet." <--- lame-o.
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15.2.10
I thought after my case with Butch two years ago I would be able to avoid these encounters. I don't know what draws old men to me and makes them seem to leave other girls alone. It's such an embedded fear of mine now. I feel like crying I get so scared sometimes regarding it. It's official. I am going to start wearing an engagement ring.
13.2.10
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